When I was young, I was very dissatisfied with my life.
Things at home weren’t the best, with arguing and fighting happening on a daily. Things at school were worse and the only place I could find peace was in my room with my music and video games.
Growing up, my parents would often throw parties in our basement and one specific time they brought in a band, which changed my life forever.
I was 9 years old and now completely obsessed with music. I bugged my dad for weeks until he finally bought me a drum kit.
Years later, after picking up the guitar and learning to sing, I began to write music. It was really the first time I had tried to express myself in any creative way.
As I progressed through my teens into adulthood, I held onto a lot of hate and resentment that ultimately led to me suffering from depression to the point of considering suicide.
When I would find myself in one of those intense states of emotion I would escape to my room and pick up the guitar to instantly start writing a song. There was something about being in that state that made the music just flow, the feelings were genuine and passionate.
I wrote about anger, frustration, loneliness, depression, betrayal and all sorts of emotions that I was experiencing.
You know what I learned from writing songs about all of my struggles?
I learned that holding onto the emotion you’re feeling or the story you’re telling yourself will only get worse the longer you hold on. I found a way to let go through songwriting. For others, it may be poetry, fiction novels, blogging, or any sort of self-expression. This is simply a way of putting it out there so you don’t have to hold onto it, it’s about letting go.
Express yourself, talk to a friend, a professional or at least put pen to page. You deserve to be free, but first you must let go.
By: Bren Dubé @brendube
Based on Episode 17 of The Implicit Show